Pages of My Diary

Pages of My Diary
Jared Yap

You know, when you start move out of the house, you realize a lot of stuff. You realized that your parents won’t be there to cover for you when you’re in trouble; you realize you have to start worrying about house rent and the car’s down payment among other stuff. But, it took me that long to also realize, that the girl that I like is right there in front of me. Oh hey, my name is Wesley and this is a story about how I fell for her. I’ve known her all my life but it took me long enough to realize that she’s actually the one, as in, the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with. She lived across the street in the opposite house and we moved in about the same time. That was about 25 years ago.

First, let me tell you a bit about myself. Well, actually, there’s nothing much about me that you will find interesting. I’m your everyday average person except for the fact that, I’m pretty much of what they would call a nice guy. You know, the nice guy. The one you call when you’re stuck somewhere and need a ride, the guy who would fix your computer for you or the guy that talks to you when no one seems like they would. But the thing about nice guys is, unlike the jocks, they don’t really get the girl they like, at least most of the time, but when they do, they’re a keeper.

The girl that I was telling you about, her name is Kristy, Kristy Yo. She’s your average girl next door. Simple, kind and somehow beautiful in a way it takes twice to see. She naturally has silky black hair, long most of the time but she occasionally curls them or shortens them. She’s your romance novel geek that easily falls in love but she is also very smart. Heck, she even scored a higher CGPA than me in high school. Her laugh is so contagious but what’s more than that, it’s actually quite sexy and her smile, you’ll feel like the whole world just brightens up by her smile alone. Her eyes, I just love those eyes. They shimmer like the stars especially under the moonlight. She’s the girl of my dreams and best of all, she’s my best friend.

It all started about 5 years ago, when I was 20 years old. I was in college at that time and I was living with a friend of mine. Kristy was in university and she lived on campus grounds. We meet every week and have our weekly lunches every Friday, where we both have the afternoons off. Well, one day, my housemate, Caleb came back home, complaining about his girlfriend, and it went on like this.

I was in the kitchen cooking when Caleb walked in.
"Dude, I don't get it man. I don’t understand." Caleb said as he poured himself a drink.
"Lemme guess, Tori?" I said, my eyes fixed on the pan as my omelet began to cook.
"There! Even you could guess it. Man, you understand women. Help me out here." Caleb said.
"Since when?" I asked.
"Since when what?" Caleb asked again.
"Since when do I understand women?" I rephrased his question.
"You know, since you're so close to them. You could chat with them easily. You just have this erm gift with women." Caleb said.
"You make me look like some Casanova or something. I'm not. Look, I grew up with 2 sisters and no brothers. It’s just natural for me to understand them, or at least a little about them. See, women are like a mystery, we, men are not meant to understand. You know, the Women are from Venus, Men are from Mars kinda thing." I began my lecture as I scooped up my omelet and transferred it on my plate.
"I'm listening" Caleb said.
"We're not meant to understand them. Our job is to just go with the flow, give in." I advised.
"But...." Caleb said.
"No buts. Just make her happy. You know, they said hell has no wrath like a woman scorned." I interrupted.
"Scary." Caleb replied.
"I know. But what can we do, they're the so-called weaker gender. Look who's the bully now." I said.
"I agree. Say, you know so much about women, why don’t you get one?" Caleb asked.
"Me? No, not now. Women, is like the last thing I wanna think about now. 2 sisters, a best GIRL friend and not to mention, my mum seems to be more than enough to handle for now. “I said.
"You and Kristy still in best friends relationship? I thought..."Caleb asked, sounding rather surprised.
"Dont even go there. We grew up together. She's practically my sister. Plus, she likes someone else." I said.
"Or maybe, you do like her but you can’t admit it?" Caleb said.
"No way." I said.
"Or maybe? I dont know. I mean, she's nice and all, but she's like a sister to me. Plus, I don’t wanna ruin what we have. Why risk a friendship?" I thought to myself.
"Alright, whatever. Can I have some of those?" Caleb asked, looking at the half eaten omelet I made.
Caleb just took the fork from my hand and grabbed a bite before walking out the door for his morning classes.
"HEY!" I shouted at him as Caleb ran off.
I just shook his head and grinned.
"Maybe Caleb was right. Maybe I do like Kritsy but I can’t admit it." I sighed.

I mean, I’ve been having this tingly feeling when I’m around her ever since two weeks ago when she was the only one who got my joke when I told it to our friends and she laughed so hard about it, tears began to fall from her eyes. So, I decided to tell her how I feel. But, being me, I can’t seem to be able to tell her directly. So, I actually dropped subtle hints, but that came to no avail as Kristy only think of those as me being her best friend and all. So, one day, I decided to tell her directly in one of our weekly Friday lunches, hoping she felt the same about me but it went down like this.

“Hey, Kris, I’m thinking of eating somewhere else today. I’ll come pick you up same time today?” I texted Kristy in the morning.
“Sure. Cya later then. Pls pick me up from my lecture hall cos’ there’s an extra class today.” Kristy replied.
So, about lunch time, I parked in front of her lecture hall to pick her up. I watched her as she walks to my car, giggling. She seemed happy about something. I’m hoping it’s good because I have something to tell her.
We stopped at this diner we used to spend our high school days at. It was further from where we usually go for lunch but I wanted to make this more special.
“It’s our favorite diner back when we were in high school.” Kristy exclaimed as we entered the diner.
After we ordered our food, we began to chat.
“Why here today? It’s been ages since we’ve been here.” Kristy asked.
“Well, I have something to tell you.” I said.
“Oh great! Cos I have something to tell you too.” Kristy said.
“Oh, really. You first.” I said.
“Okay. You know, there’s this guy in my sociology class, he’s so cute and guess what, he asked me to be his girlfriend today. I’m so happy and I just have to share this with you, my best friend.” Kristy told me.
My heart sank as she told me that particular detail but I had to pretend to be happy for her.
“I’m happy for you. You deserve it.” I replied, faking a smile so she won’t be suspicious of how I felt.
“So, what was it that you wanted to tell me?” Kristy leaned forward and asked me.
“Oh, it’s nothing. It’s not important” I said.
“Come on, of course it is. You brought me here a lot when we were in high school, especially when you have something to say.” Kristy insisted.
My heart began racing a mile a minute. I had to make something up.
“Er. It was just my house mate, Caleb. He’s kinda having some problem with his girlfriend. I’m just wondering if I could get a girl’s point of view on his case.” I said.
A part of me felt relieved that telling that would probably get Kristy to not ask on the real thing I wanted to tell her but a part of me felt bad that I had not told her the truth. But then again, I’m killing two birds with one stone here, getting help for Caleb and covering the thing that I wanted to tell Kristy about.

So then, Kristy went out with this guy, Parry. To be honest, I don’t really like him. He’s kind of arrogant and cocky. But I guess I’ll just keep that to myself. They were going strong, if you can call that, until one day, about 4 months later, Kristy told me she saw Parry kissing this new girl in university as she and her friends were walking to class. So, that evening, I went to her campus to comfort her when something like this happened.

Kristy and I were sitting at the bench just outside Kristy's dorm area. Kristy was crying.
"I don't know what to do Wes. I can't believe he did that to me." Kristy sobbed.
I just kept quiet. I knew that saying anything wouldn't help my best childhood friend.
I rubbed Kristy's back as let her lean on my shoulder as she wept.
"Do you want me to hug you?" I whispered.
Kristy just nodded silently as her head moved to my chest.
The warmth comforted Kristy in the cold night.

"YOU! STAY AWAY FROM MY GIRLFRIEND!" a voice shouted from afar as a male figure approached us.
The man pulled me and Kristy apart and punched me in the face.
"PARRY! Stop it!" Kristy shouted.
The man, Parry turned towards Kristy.
"Babe. What happened? Did you just cry?" Parry asked her as he let go of me.
"It’s...it’s... nothing..." Kristy answered, stuttering.
"No, it’s not nothing. Take a wild guess at who made her cry..." I said to Parry, Kristy shaking her head, mouthing a "No" at me, pleading.
"SHUT YOU FACE HOLE GEEK!" Parry shouted at me.
"What...what happened babe." Parry asked Kristy as he tried to grab her but she shrugged him off.
"Tell him Kris. Tell him or I will." I urged Kristy.
"Tell me what?" Parry looked at Kristy.
Kristy just shook her head.

"You can’t let this happen Kris. You know what you did?! Kristy saw you kissing the new girl, Sasha was it..." I, getting angry said to Parry.
"Wh...I'm... I'm sorry babe. I didn't mean to. She came over me and started flirting with me. The next thing I know, she's kissing me. I know I should've stopped her, but I cant... I'm sorry." Parry pleaded with Kristy.
"What do you mean you can’t?" Kristy asked, doubt and disbelieve in her tone.
"I'm a man, babe. I have my needs. And since you don't want to satisfy them, I can’t help myself but get it from another girl." Parry said, justifying his actions and trying to shift the blame on Kristy.
"Wh...what?" Kristy said, in disbelieve that he just said that.
Realizing the truth of Parry's intentions to be with her, Kristy took a deep breath.
"I promised myself to stay pure and keep my virginity. If you can’t respect that, I don't think we should be together." Kristy said, strong.
"So you breaking up with me now heh, b*tch. You know what, I'm tired of you keeping your V-card all to yourself. I dont need you..." Parry shouted at Kristy.
"YOU JERK!" I shouted as I dashed towards Parry and punched him in the gut.
I was going for another punch when Kristy stopped him.
"WES! STOP!" Kristy stopped me and pulled me away.
"He's not worth it." Kristy said to me, shaking her head in disappointment.
The two of us walked towards Kristy's dorm compound.
"Yeah! Walk away now. Walk away..." Parry said as he stood up, holding his stomach in pain.
I turned my head but Kristy squeezed my arm, shaking her head.
We continued to walk in.

We then sat on the seat of the garden set in Kristy's dorm compound.
"Does it hurt?" Kristy asked as she applied ointment at my lip bruise.
"Ow...ow..." I reacted to the pain.
"It does" I said with a laugh in my tone.
Then, our eyes met.
It felt like there's a connection.
Suddenly, my cellphone rang.
I grabbed and answered my cellphone.
"Dude, where are you? You're supposed to be here for practice remember?" Caleb, who was on the other side said.
"Yea, yea. I'll be there soon." I answered as I pressed the red button.
"Duty calls." I joked as I looked at Kristy.
Kristy laughed.
"Thank you." Kristy whispered.
I just nodded as he gave an assuring smile.
"I'll walk you back to you dorm." I offered.
"It's okay." Kristy answered.
"No, I insist." I said.
"Fine." Kristy said with a smile.

We walked towards Kristy's dorm building.
I stopped about 5 meters away from the door as Kristy walks on.
Arriving at the door, Kristy turned and gave a wave.
I returned the gesture.
Kristy laughed and entered her dorm.
I smiled and shook my head as I walked off.

Kristy is single again and yes, I still have feelings for her. But, I felt like she needs time to cool off first. I guess there could be another time to “drop the bomb”. Little did I know, she dropped the bomb first, but not the type of bomb that u would like. It was during my annual semester end party which I always invite Kristy to join. The bomb was dropped like this.
It was the annual semester end party, but this time, it's different due to the fact that this would be our last semester thus this party will be the last annual semester end party. What made this even more different is the fact that Kristy dropped the big bomb on me. And it wasn't the kind of news that anyone would like to hear from a friend let alone their best friend. She told me something that might change everything I've ever known.

Kristy was really quiet this time. She was not really in the mood for a party. Everyone on our table chatted happily but Kristy was really quiet which is really odd for her. When asked, she just said she was not feeling well, but I know there’s more to that than just not feeling well.
As Kristy excused herself and head to the lady's i followed her and tapped her on the shoulder.

"Kris, are you okay? You've been really quiet all night? Is something wrong? And don’t tell me you're just not feeling well cos I know that’s not it" I said.
"Wes, I'm fine. Really. I'm just not feeling too well." Kristy replied.
"I know you too well. Being under the weather doesn't get you down like this." I said.
"You're right. My dad got promoted. They dropped me the news yesterday." Kristy said.
"That's great!" I told her.
"The thing is, it's gonna be in LA as in Los Angeles. My whole family will be moving there next year and by next year, I mean next month." Kristy said, getting teary eyed.

Now all the pieces fit together. I know exactly why she was so quiet. At the same time, my heart crumbled and shatter into pieces. Will I be able to tell her before it is too late? Or should I tell her at all? I'm afraid that if I do, I would make this so much harder than it already is. I'll be holding her back.
Kristy began to sob as I held her and gave my shoulder for her to cry on.
Calmly, I told her "It's gonna be alright. We'll keep in touch no matter where we are and how far we're apart. We have Facebook and Skype now, remember."

I faked a smile as I told her that, holding my tears back as I'm about to let go of the girl I fell for.
It was always Kristy's dream to go and have a new life in New York and LA is one step nearer to achieving it for her.
I was not going to hold her back. I couldn't afford to. Seeing her happy is that important to me.
She looked at me as I gently wiped the tears from her eyes.
Her mascara smudged and we started laughing, just to break the tension.
I watched her as she made her way to the lady's, my heart aches with every step she took.
It will only be 10 more days till she leaves.
In those 10 days, I'm gonna try my best to make sure she leaves without a single regret in mind.
I promised myself that and I promised not to let her know how I felt about her.

That day finally came, the day where Kristy would leave to be half way around the world, too many miles too far away.
We are at the airport, just me and Kristy's family.
My parents could not make it due to work obligations and I had to send them to the airport.
I pulled Kristy aside soon after.
I wanted to bid my last farewells to her in private.
My heart wanted to say those three words but "I'll miss you...a lot." came out instead.
"I'll miss you too." she said.
"Take care okay." I said to her.
She just nodded.
We hugged after that.
I wish time would stop for a moment like this.
It was a hard Goodbye.

"FLIGHT LA6549 TO LOS ANGELES WILL DEPART IN 10 MINUTES. PASSENGERS, PLEASE PROCEED TO TERMINAL 3" the announcement went on.
We let go of each other as we walked back to Uncle Christopher, Auntie Katie, and Kina, Kristy's sister.
I accompanied them till the furthest I could go.
I watched as they walked into the terminal and waved my final farewell as Kristy walked pass the arch.
I stayed a while longer as i watched the airplanes take off.
Confident that that airplane was the one Kristy was on board, I waved up to the sky as I watch it leave.
Walking back to my car, I felt my world changing.
No more calling up somebody or expecting somebody to call me in the middle of the night just to talk. No more lunches together every Tuesday, Kristy's and my weekly routine, no more laughing our heads of at silly jokes and puns and also, no more walking through the streets with somebody by my side after a long day.

So there she goes, half way around the world. We kept in touch but due to time difference, we rarely get to chat long. Once in a while, we send each other letters and packages of things that we cannot get where we were. Life went on as usual. Each day seems normal except for the fact that I felt a little lonelier. Caleb has moved put, back to his hometown and I now have the house all to myself. My parents come over to visit once in a while. Two years after graduation, and into my job, I decided to further my studies to my masters. So, I applied for university. Two months later, I got my reply and I got into UCLA, as in University California, Los Angeles and Los Angeles, as in Los Angeles where Kristy is. I was ecstatic. Maybe we might have a chance after all. I did not tell Kristy, hoping to surprise her. 5 months later, I moved to UCLA and that was the holiday seasons. I knew Kristy’s house address as we send stuff to each other. I thought of celebrating Thanksgiving with the Yo’s as they are the closest thing to family I have. And the story went on like this.

Ding Dong, the doorbell went. Kina ran towards the door and opened it, surprised to find me at the door.
“Wesley! What are you doing here?” Kina exclaimed as she gave a big smile.
I laughed and told her that I just landed in LA 2 weeks ago and moved into my apartment near UCLA.
“Is Kristy home yet?” I asked.
“No, she’s at work. But she’ll probably be back around this time.” Kina replied.
“Great. I’ll wait for her. Say hello to your parents for me.” I replied.
“Sure.” Kina said as she went back in.
About 10 minutes later, a familiar figure walked towards the house. She was not alone. My heart sank a little. They seemed to be hand in hand, laughing away when the female turned and saw me. She let go of the male’s hand and ran towards me.
“WES!” she shouted as she ran towards me and threw in a hug around me.
I hugged her back.
“It’s been a while, Kris.” I said.
“What brings you here?” Kristy asked, a bug smile on her face.
“I’ll tell you later.” I said.
By then, the man has reached to where we were.
“Oh, Wes, this is Leon. He’s my coworker and recently became my boyfriend.” Kristy introduced the man.
“Nice to meet you. Kristy has told me a lot about you.” Leon said as he held out his hand.
I held out my hand and shook his.
“Nice to meet you too. Sad that I can’t say the same about you.” I joked as I looked at Kristy.
“I can’t reach you these days.” Kristy said.
I laughed.
“That’s probably cos I’ve been moving here.” I replied.
“You’re moving here?!” Kristy was shocked, in a good way.
“It’s getting cold, let’s go in.” Leon said.
“Yea, we should. I’ll tell you guys more over dinner.” I said.
Over dinner, Kristy introduced Leon to her family and we talked about a lot of stuff over dinner.
Auntie Katie prepared an awesome meal and I was stuffed.

To me, Leon was much better than Parry ever will be. He’s a gentleman, successful and nice. Now, how can I beat that. Though it’s hard for me to admit, but if I’m to lose Kristy to another man, it would be him. I know that he could treat her well. I guess I’ll just have to raise the white flag to Leon. Two years later, the following event happened.

“Wes, I have to tell you something. Meet me in the Starbucks near my office.” Kristy said through the cellphone, she sounded excited.
“Oh, ok.” I replied.
So, I went down to Starbucks during lunch hour to meet up with Kristy.
I waited for about 15 minutes when I saw Kristy walked in.
I handed a cup of her favorite frap to her as we sat down and talk.
“What was it that you want to talk to me about?” I asked Kristy, eager to find out what made my friend so happy.
She pulled out her left hand and show me a giant bling on the ring finger.
“Is that a…” I asked.
“Yes! Leon proposed to me last night. I said yes.” Kristy exclaimed with joy.
My heart knew that I should be happy for her but I can’t help but feel a little sad that I no longer have a chance in this.
The topic of the afternoon revolved around the ring and preparations for the wedding.
The wedding would be in 2 months’ time and Kristy wanted Kina and I to help her out.
We went shopping together for her dress among other stuff.
I was truly happy for her. After all, she deserved the best.
So, the day finally arrived when Kristy will get married to Leon.
It was beautiful and I’ve never seen Kristy this happy.
I soon shook of my feelings for her and was truly happy as long as she is happy with Leon.

Nothing has really changed even after Kristy got married. I soon graduated from UCLA and got a job in LA, so, I decided to move there for real. Kristy and I continued our weekly Friday lunches and life went on well. I now see Kristy as my best friend, a friend I had since I was young, a friend I once had a crush on. I am no the godfather of her kids. I’m still looking for the right person, and maybe Kristy was not the one for me. I do not know when but I know that love will eventually find me one day. I hope you will have better luck than me on this. But now, I have to go out and meet Kristy for our weekly Friday lunches. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

after a long grueling day of writing, i finally finished my short story...

so, i can cross that out of my after-stpm-to-do list now...

here's the intro to it but you can read the whole story at http://www.scribd.com/doc/45789277/Pages-of-My-Diary

so, here goes...

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Pages of My Diary
Jared Yap

You know, when you start move out of the house, you realize a lot of stuff. You realized that your parents won’t be there to cover for you when you’re in trouble; you realize you have to start worrying about house rent and the car’s down payment among other stuff. But, it took me that long to also realize, that the girl that I like is right there in front of me. Oh hey, my name is Wesley and this is a story about how I fell for her. I’ve known her all my life but it took me long enough to realize that she’s actually the one, as in, the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with. She lived across the street in the opposite house and we moved in about the same time. That was about 25 years ago....

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but if you're too lazy to go to Scribd, you can read it above...

Magical Christmas?

you know what would be awesome?!

having an almost magical Christmas...

i know... thats how the world supposedly sees it but hey, even i want to dream of a white Christmas as well you know...

i really wished i could experience Christmas like those kids in Western countries where on Christmas eve, they either sit around the Christmas tree by the fire and wait till midnight to open their presents and having a jolly good time without a care in the world...

or having fun just decorating the Christmas tree with carols and Christmas songs playing in the background...

or just waking up to Christmas with laughter and fun...

or playing with snow and making snowmen...

that will be an experience that i would like to have...

but i think i'm too old for that and i never really had a chance to have that as far as i could remember...

and now, we have Christmas Carnival every year and thus, no waking up late and lazing around on Christmas...

sigh....

if only we can be like kids and feel the "magic" of Christmas...

a feeling that the world is at total peace for just one day...

Another piece...

another scene...

one of the important scenes in my short story...

i'm trying something different as in I'm gonna write this in a first person point of view and see which is better...

oh, and by the way, i figured the title for this story. well, actually, i thought of 2, need help choosing one.

should I put it as "Pages of My Diary" or "Moments with Her."?

anyways, enough of me, time for the scene...

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It was the annual semester end party, but this time, it's different due to the fact that this would be our last semester thus this party will be the last annual semester end party. What made this even more different is the fact that Kristy drop the big bomb on me. And it wasn't the kind of news that anyone would like to hear from a friend let alone their best friend. She told me something that might change everything I've ever know.

Kristy was really quiet this time. She was not really in the mood for a party. Everyone on our table chatted happily but Kristy was really quiet which is really odd for her. When asked, she just said she was not feeling well, but I know theres more to that than just not feeling well.

As Kristy excused herself and head to the lady's i followed her and tapped her on the shoulder.

"Kris, are you okay? You've been really quiet all night? Is something wrong? And dont tell me you're just not feeling well cos I know thats not it" I said.

"Wes, I'm fine. Really. I'm just not feeling too well." Kristy replied.

"I know you too well. Being under the weather doesn't get you down like this." I said.

"You're right. My dad got promoted. They dropped me the news yesterday." Kristy said.

"That's great!" I told her.

"The thing is, it's gonna be in LA as in Los Angeles. My whole family will be moving there next year and by next year, I mean next month." Kristy said, getting teary eyed.

Now all the pieces fit together. I know exactly why she was so quiet. At the same time, my heart crumbled and shatter into pieces. Will I be able to tell her before it is too late? Or should I tell her at all? I'm afraid that if I do, I would make this so much harder than it already is. I'll be holding her back.

Kristy began to sob as I held her and gave my shoulder for her to cry on.

Calmly, I told her "It's gonna be alright. We'll keep in touch no matter where we are and how far we're apart. We have Facebook and Skype now, remember."

I faked a smile as I told her that, holding my tears back as I'm about to let go of the girl I fell for.

It was always Kristy's dream to go and have a new life in New York and LA is one step nearer to achieving it for her.

I was not going to hold her back. I couldn't afford to. Seeing her happy is that important to me.

She looked at me as I gently wiped the tears from her eyes.

Her mascara smudged and we started laughing, just to break the tension.

I watched her as she made her way to the lady's, my heart aches with every step she took.

It will only be 10 more days till she leaves.

In those 10 days, I'm gonna try my best to make sure she leaves without a single regret in mind.

I promised myself that and I promised not to let her know how I felt about her.

That day finally came, the day where Kristy would leave to be half way around the world, too many miles too far away.

We are at the airport, just me and Kristy's family.

My parents could not make it due to work obligations and I had to send them to the airport.

I pulled Kristy aside soon after.

I wanted to bid my last farewells to her in private.

My heart wanted to say those three words but "I'll miss you...a lot." came out instead.

"I'll miss you too." she said.

"Take care okay." I said to her.

She just nodded.

We hugged after that.

I wish time would stop for a moment like this.

It was a hard Goodbye.

"FLIGHT LA6549 TO LOS ANGELES WILL DEPART IN 10 MINUTES. PASSENGERS, PLEASE PROCEED TO TERMINAL 3" the announcement went on.

We let go of each other as we walked back to Uncle Christopher, Auntie Katie, and Kira, Kristy's sister.

I accompanied them till the furthest I could go.

I watched as they walked into the terminal and waved my final farewell as Kristy walked pass the arch.

I stayed a while longer as i watched the airplanes take off.

Confident that that airplane was the one Kristy was on board, I waved up to the sky as I watch it leave.

Walking back to my car, I felt my world changing.

No more calling up somebody or expecting somebody to call me in the middle of the night just to talk. No more lunches together every Tuesday, Kristy's and my weekly routine, no more laughing our heads of at silly jokes and puns and also, no more walking through the streets with somebody by my side after a long day.

Awkward Moment (in detail) #1

you know whats awkward...

when you are watching a vlog on youtube and noticed that something (and by something, i meant dirt) is on your screen at the most inappropriate places...

like when the dirt is just at the vlogger's boobs or face...

you wanna just scratch the dirt off but you'll think that people will think that you're a sex addict or homo (if the vlogger is of the same gender)...

lemme know if that has ever happened to you...

I think i'll pen them down

i think i'll start (or should i say develop) this story after i finish STPM, which is two weeks more to go...

if you dont know what i'm talking about, look at (and read) the post below...

anyone wants to know what is it gonna be about?

i'll tell you anyways...

its gonna be a classic tale of a guy realizing he fell for his childhood best friend and the obstacles that come his way just because he is afraid to tell her how he feels, afraid that it might ruin his friendship with her and everything he has ever known.

for staying with me this long, i'll give you a little sneak peak on the next scene i'm gonna write... it's one of the climax of the story...

well, actually, its not really a sneak peak, its more of a sneak pic....

i'm gonna use this photo for the next scene's erm.... emotion setting orwhatever you wanna call it...

Another Short Scene...

here's another scene that has been playing in my mind...

yes, i love the names Wesley and Kristy and thus used them again...

you know, if i can fill in the gaps and everything, this could actually turn out to be a script...

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Wesley and Kristy were sitting at the bench just outside Kristy's dorm area.

Kirsty was crying.

"I don't know what to do Wes. I can't believe he did that to me." Kristy sobbed.

Wesley just kept quiet. He knew that saying anything wouldn't help his best childhood friend.

Wesley rubbed Kristy's back as he let her lean on his shoulder as she wept.

"Do you want me to hug you?" Wesley whispered.

Kristy just nodded silently as her head moved to Wesley's chest.

The warmth form Wesley comforted Kristy in the cold night.

"YOU! STAY AWAY FROM MY GIRLFRIEND!" a voice shouted from afar as a male figure approached them.

The man pulled Wesley and Kristy apart and punched Wesley in the face.

"PARRY! Stop it!" Kristy shouted.

The man, Parry turned towards Kristy.

"Babe. What happened? Did you just cry?" Parry asked her as he let go of Wesley.

"Its...its... nothing..." Kristy answered, stuttering.

"No, its not nothing. Take a wild guess at who made her cry..." Wesley said to Parry, Kristy shaking her head, mouthing a "No" at Wesley, pleading.

"SHUT YOU FACE HOLE GEEK!" Parry shouted at Wesley.

"What...what happened babe." Parry asked Kristy as he tried to grab her but she shrugged him off.

"Tell him Kris. Tell him or I will." Wesley urged Kristy.

"Tell me what?" Parry looked at Kristy.

Kristy just shake her head.

"You cant let this happen Kris. You know what you did?! Kristy saw you kissing the new girl, Sasha was it..." Wesley, getting angry said to Parry.

"Wh...I'm... I'm sorry babe. I didn't mean to. She came over me and started flirting with me. The next thing I know, she's kissing me. I know I should've stopped her, but I cant... I'm sorry."Parry pleaded with Kristy.

"What do you mean you cant?" Kristy asked, doubt and disbelieve in her tone.

"I'm a man, babe. I have my needs. And since you don't want to satisfy them, I cant help myself but get it from another girl." Parry said, justifying his actions and trying to shift the blame on Kristy.

"Wh...what?" Kristy said, in disbelieve that he just said that.

Realizing the truth of Parry's intentions to be with her, Kristy took a deep breath.

"I promised myself to stay pure and keep my virginity. If you cant respect that, I don't think we should be together." Kristy said, strong.

"So you breaking up with me now heh, b*tch. You know what, I'm tired of you keeping your V-card all to yourself. I dont need you..." Parry shouted at Kristy.

"YOU JERK!" Wesley shouted as he dashed towards Parry and punched him in the gut.

Wesley was going for another punch when Kristy stopped him.

"WES! STOP!" Kristy stopped Wesley and pulled him away.

"He's not worth it."Kristy said to Wesley, shaking her head in disappointment.

The two of them walked towards Kristy'd dorm compound.

"Yeah! Walk away now. Walk away..." Parry said as he stand up, holding his stomach in pain.

Wesley turned his head but Kristy squeezed his arm, shaking her head.

They continued to walk in.

The two besties sat on the seat of the garden set in Kristy's dorm compound.

"Does it hurt?" Kristy asked as she applied ointment at Wesley's lip bruise.

"Ow...ow..." Wesley reacted to the pain.

"It does" Wesley said with a laugh in his tone.

Then, their eyes met.

It felt like there's a connection.

Suddenly, Wesley's cellphone rang.

Wesley grabbed and answered his cellphone.

"Dude, where are you? You're supposed to be here for practice remember?" the guy on the other side said.

"Yea, yea. I'll be there soon." Wesley answered as he pressed the red button.

"Duty calls." Wesley joked as he looked at Kristy.

Kristy laughed.

"Thank you." Kristy whispered.

Wesley just nodded as he gave an assuring smile.

"I'll walk you back to you dorm." Wesley offered.

"It's okay." Kristy answered.

"No, I insist." Wesley said.

"Fine." Kristy said with a smile.

The two walked towards Kristy's dorm building.

Wesley stopped about 5 meters away from the door as Kristy walks on.

Arriving at the door, Kristy turned and gave a wave.

Wesley returned the gesture.

Kristy laughed and entered her dorm.

Wesley smiled and shook his head as he walked off.

Christmas Wishlist...

i know Christmas is a time of giving...

so, why dont you give these to me.....

just kidding....

~cue in awkward silence, sounds of wind and crows~

i'm sorry...

now, really...

the below is actually my wishlist...

which i will probably end up buying myself anyways...

1. Plaid Shirt (blue or white/black, long sleeves)

2. Speakers (not just any speakers, Panda speakers, either blue or black)

3. a new bag (my white bag has a broken zipper)

4. Mix-Style headphones (though the real ones would be awesome, but imitation ones are okay...oh, and the color matters... i want either the blue, white or black headphones)

5. Wallet (white color would be great)

thats all....for now...

but if you're really nice, maybe you can get me a NiceGuy t-shirt...

i see a lot of white here....

maybe white would be my color next year...

Exam Rating for Asians - How it is and how its supposed to be.

for Asians, we or rather our parents have a different rating system for our exams than the rest of the world...

this is how it is for Asian parents...

A= Average
B= Below Average
C= Crappy
D= Death (partially from parents)

F= F*cked (partially from parents)

But i think this is how its supposed to be

A = Awesome

B = Beyond Awesome

C = Cause you're Awesome

D = Deadly Awesome

F = Freaking Awesome

Youtube Amazing Race?

a number of famous youtubers that i follow on twitter were "discussing" on a Youtube Amazing Race...

if that ever happens, what will the 11 teams of 2 will be?

lets see my list.

(this is purely made up, which will probably never happen, but oh well)

01. Team HappyJumba - Kevin Wu and Christine Gambito

02. Team WangFu - Philip Wang and Ted Fu

03. Team Stalk Fest - Wesley Chan and Cathy Nguyen

04. Team A.S.S - Ryan Higa and Arden Cho

05. Team Aussies - Natalie Tran and Mitch

06. Team MTWY - David Choi and Kina Grannis

07. Team Vic-Trix - Dominic Sandoval and Victor Kim

08. Team Smosh - Ian Hecox and Anthony Padilla

09. Team Beauty Gurus - Lindy Tsang and Michelle Phan

10. Team Yale - Kurt Schneider and Sam Tsui

11. Team La-Ter - Chester See and Lana McKissack

UPDATE! (07/12/10)

i finally finished the video...

made some changes to the teams

random rambles

dont read this...

i'm writing this for the fun of expression...

its pretty much nonsense...

you have been warned...

but since you still wanna read this, be my guest...

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i'm beginning to think that maybe, just maybe

God made me unable to study or kinda easily distracted especially from studying cos maybe, just maybe... this will lead me to somewhere and public university might not be that place...

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ok, enough of my weird ramblings...

here's what i've been up to today...

so, this is what i did almost the whole day today...

i made a fan-made opening for Power Rangers Samurai that will be airing next year...

take a look and tell me what you think...

even of you're not a ranger fan, check it out too and tell me how you think i could further improve my editing skills...

Get to know Jared 101 - Famous Lines

Step one the get to know me...

know my lines...

so, to help you, i'm gonna let you in on a few lines that i always use...

1. ewww....

2. i'm confused...

3. sheer awesomeness

4. really?

5. errrrr.....

6. i guess.....

7. true true...

8. oh

9. not really...

10. kinda....maybe....

now there people, you have now learned a few of my famous last words...

or is it lines....

i'm confused...

so, now you know me a little bit better...

Girls are like chocolates...

adding on to KevJumba, i think girls are like chocolates...

they make you feel good but dont warn you of the negative effects till its too late and the cure takes time...

like how chocolate dont warn you till you finally realize you're fat and have pimples all over, girls dont warn you when they'll blow up..

they also dont warn you but you'll have less money in your pocket and soon, you cant spend on yourself anymore...

girls also can cause you to always think about them and you'll finally neglect yourself...

its weird...

but we guys still do it...

i guess talking about girls make me a straight guy...

thats random...

byes...

video by Kevjumba...

copyright infringementation unintended...

(but look on the bright side, i'm promoting the video)

ok, i'm getting pretty weird now (probably due to the lack of sleep)

so, i'm gonna sign off...

byes....again....

Pet Peeve(s) - I now have one

i used to think that i dont really have a pt peeve, but now, i realize, like every average human being, i do have one...

and my pet peeve is ....drum roll.....

inconsiderate people....

i find inconsiderate people very annoying...

they're worse than selfish people in a way where they try to secure themselves or benifit themselves AT THE EXPENSE OF OTHERS...

they make people wait for a long time in a queue just so that they can count their change, they make the people that they carpool with wait just so they could talk to their other friends, they park their cars in an odd position so that no one could block them but they do not care if they are making it hard for others to park their cars and soooo many more....

its really annoying...

today was the first day of my major exam...

when the time is up, this one guy was checking everything again SLOWLY, making sure his stuff are complete...

one of the invigilators had already picked up all the other papers, only his left...

and he made us wait for like 10-15 minutes for him to check his papers...

come on! others had the same amount of time yet we finished our work already...

you're holding people up...

and when we "teased" him on making people wait, not even a word of sorry but just justifying that he did that for safety...

yea, like others dont need safety...

we do, we just dont do it at the expense of others...

its like when you are in a burning building, you use another person to shield you all the way, not caring if that person will survive or not...

and when we are to go back already, the very same person made us wait for like 20 minutes or so just so he could discuss on the exam...

the exam is already over...

no point discussing...

how if i had an emergency all of a sudden but cant find him and just left...

i wonder will i get some scolding...

sheesh...

and he always "apologize" but this is not the first time, nor the second...

he did it so many times i lost count...

and this time, not even a word of sorry....

and i guess he isn't sensitive enough to feel that i was annoyed...

sheesh....

but i really thank God for another friend of mine who let me vent out just now...

Movies that i want to watch

1. Despicable Me

2. Megamind

3. Life As We Know It

4. Chronicles of Narnia: Vovage of the Dawn Treader

5. Sammy's Adventures: The Secret Passage

hmmm... what else?

random yet common scenario

White: Hey, are you Jackie Chan?
Asian: Erm, no. What makes you think I am?

White: gosh! You Asians all look alike.

Asian: No we dont.

White: Yes you do.

Asian: You white people just cant see right...

if anyone who have small eyes and round nose is Jackie Chan, then yea, I'm Jackie Chan y'all...

fitting in is just not my thang nemore...

i always felt that i don't fit in...

today, i know i don't...

i guess its better that way...

makes "saying" goodbye a whole lot easier...

i'll just finish up STPM and go...

wont look back...

to be honest...(read with caution)

i've been thinking...

maybe this period of time, this very dulling depressing time

where it seems like people are letting me down, where i do a lot of stuff to try and make others happy but ended up hurt by the reluctance of some party to help or the back talking that i'm trying to get into the good books and the unappreciative behavior of others,

is actually a time where God is letting me feel what some others are feeling...

instances that broke my heart just thinking about it...

instances that i just felt like there's really no other redeeming quality left...

instances where i just HATE myself for doing things that others just dont understand...

they really get to me like a thorn in my skin...

and they left me wounded for days resulting to a quieter than usual self of mine...

such instances if i must share would be...

when it come to the so-called CF that we tried to make

we had our first meeting...

everyone was like "it was awesome", "maybe we should do more", "we should have started earlier"

but then, we never had another meeting since then...

this was due to absents and disapproval of parents to stay back...

i was to be honest, saddened by this...

if your parents dont approve, its fine...

but if you're absent, COME ON!

do you know how tired and lazy i was but i still lift my butt and come to school just so that we could meet, to actually pray for this dying land and here we are, some just too lazy to come...

is sleeping more important than the fact that the end times is near, that people are actually dying without Christ?

*ok calm down...

i think God is actually trying to show me what broke His heart...

that His people would rather be complacent, be happy in their own comfort than to actually start going on their knees, CRYING for the land....

and I think He did accomplish His goal, to break my heart for what broke His...

cos it broke my heart to see the CF gone just like that, just after one meeting...

and the other was (if you read my tweet) the feeling of being unappreciated...

i know that in whatever we do, we should not take the glory to ourselves...

i'm not trying to take the glory and the name, i just want people to at least appreciate me more...

i've been feeling unappreciated lately...

be it friends in school or family members (though i can sometimes feel appreciated)

my friends kinda treat me like their driver already...

going here, going there...

and when they talk about going for trips that they dont need transport, they actually talked beside me where i could hear them but they never asked for me to join them....

yea yea... i'm supposed to make the move to join them but knowing me, i dont like to jump into the wagon uninvited...

and sometimes at home, i try to go out of my way to try and make my parents happy....

but then, when i try to ask for help, i was faced with reluctance and sour faces...

and though i should not be too sensitive, it gets on my nerves...

here i am, trying to maintain the peace at home...

and maybe, just maybe, bring some happy times...

but was face with this type of nonsense instead....

yayaya... i'm the witch, nagging to get things done, but for who? for WHO i just wanna ask...

you think i enjoy doing house chores?

no, I dont... but i would do it to make at least Mum happy...

so, why is it that you cant help me out...

when mum is happy, everyone gets happy, but when things are not done, why is it that i have to listen to all the complaints?

do you know, i have to listen to all the complaints the most...

my parents complain and nag when the other 2 arent around...

and i have to listen to all that...

and i'm affected by it...

i get hurt... yet no one knows...

everyone blames me for being a bottle but the truth is, i was forced to be this way due to circumstances...

*calm

i'm thinking that God is showing me the feelings of a mother...

work the whole day or quit a high paying job just for the family only to be faced with a load of nonsense and being unappreciated...

Mum, i'm trying my best to appreciate you more...

cos now i know how you felt...

blablabla...

sorry to pour it all out...

but no one reads my dying blog anyways, so, whatever...

stuff i so wanna get...

next year, when i get a job, and then my pay, i really want to get these...

Raise Your hand if you're a Nice Guy T-shirt

i like the back of it too...

it said "shoulders to lean on" at the top...

and this too...

Awkward Rhino

and/or an Awkward Turtle

unless if someone want to get them for me.... hehehe...

A "short" love story

this is a whole different story than the one i did before and will do after this...

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Friends around Sky are slowing getting into a relationship one by one.

Naturally, Sky got a little jealous.

What is he lacking that he cant seem to get the girls.

Then, in his class, he saw Molly.

She was smart, polite and overall nice.

She's just average in the looks department but that doesn't matter.

Sky is a bit desperate, not wanting to lose out.

He tried to drop subtle hints to Molly.

He walks her to to the bus stop after classes, greets her every morning and even got her gifts for her birthday.

He was rather unsure if she even got the message.

Little did he realize, Sky slowly fell for Molly.

His "challenge" turned into genuine affection.

Soon enough, Sky's friends got the idea and encouraged him.

They knew Molly longer than Sky and they know that Molly is not an easy target.

They tried to help but it was not working.

Soon after, the school organized a trip.

Sky went but Molly cant.

During the trip, a girl, Emily took in a liking towards Sky.

Emily said that she would like to have a shot at being with Sky.

Now, Emily is pretty, tall, funny and optimistic.

She' smart too but not as smart as Molly.

Sky was taken aback by the remark.

Honestly, he was not sure.

He just laughed it off, treating it as a mere joke.

He thinks it is not fair for Molly.
How if Molly got the message but pretended not to know.

How of Molly might like him too but is too shy to tell.

Sky doesn't want to lose his friendship but he doesn't want to miss this chance either.

Sky is confused.

He didn't know what to do.

If he goes out with Emily, it might be unfair for Molly.

But if he continues to pursue Molly, he might lose his friendship with Molly and it would also be unfair for Emily.

little stuffs that i do

you know...

i'm rather okay with ideas/scenes... short ones though

but good enough to provide inspiration for people to work with and develop them...

so, maybe, just maybe, i'll put them up on my blog and see what happens...

who know...

Think Twice

Rina and Kate were in Rina's living room, chatting.

"You know Rin, I've been so worked up lately. It's tiring." Kate said.

"I know honey." Rina said to Kate and gave her a hug and a shoulder to lean on.

"I mean, life is just so, tiring when you keep on giving. Being a nice person and not say no when others need you. Sometimes, I wish I could be selfish. Just sometimes....."Kate said until she was interrupted by a phone call.

"Kate, can you come back now. I need you. I dont wanna be alone." said Kathy, Kate's recently singled sister through the other side.
"But Kathy, I'm in the middle of something here." Kate answered.

"You said you'll be there for me." Kathy replied.

Kate sighed.

"Fine, I'll be there. Give me 30 minutes, okay." Kate replied as she hang up.

"Here you go again." Rina remarked.

"She's been like this for days Rin. It's draining me up. I kinda regret telling her that she can call me anytime. You know, the other day, she called me up. At 4 in the morning. I had to drive over to her place in the wee hours in the morning just to accompany her. And a jug of coffee barely worked when I was at work that day. And... and the other day...." Kate complained until Rina stopped her.
"Honey, it's gonna be okay. Just go now. She'll get over it soon." Rina comforted Kate as she walked Kate to the door.

"She better be. I know I'm her sister and all, but she's 20. And I have my limits too." Kate said as she leaves.

Kate took a few steps and turned.

She said to Rina, "Oh, and Rin, the next time you tell somebody that they could call you anytime, remember to think twice."

Women?

Wesley was in the kitchen cooking when his house mate, Caleb walked in.

"Dude, I don't get it man. I dont understand." Caleb said as he poured himself a drink.

"Lemme guess, Tori?" Wesley said, his eyes fixed on the pan as his omelet began to cook.

"There! Even you could guess it. Man, you understand women. Help me out here." Caleb said.

"Since when?" Wesley asked.
"Since when what?" Caleb asked again.

"Since when do I understand women?" Wesley rephrased his question.

"You know, since you're so close to them. You could chat with them easily. You just have this erm gift with women." Caleb said.

"You make me look like some Casanova or something. I'm not. Look, I grew up with 2 sisters and no brothers. Its just natural for me to understand them, or at least a little about them. See, women are like a mystery, we, men are not meant to understand. You know, the Women are from Venus, Men are from Mars kinda thing." Wesley began his lecture as he scooped up his omelet and transferred it on his plate.

"I'm listening" Caleb said.

"We're not meant to understand them. Our job is to just go with the flow, give in." Wesley advised.

"But...." Caleb said.

"No buts. Just make her happy. You know, they said hell has no wrath like a woman scorned." Wesley interrupted.

"Scary." Caleb replied.

"I know. But what can we do, they're the so-called weaker gender. Look who's the bully now." Wesley said.

"I agree. Say, you know so much bout women, why dont you get one?" Caleb asked.

"Me? No, not now. Women, is like the last thing I wanna think about now. 2 sisters, a best GIRL friend and not to mention, my mum seems to be more than enough to handle for now."Wesley said.

"You and Kristy still in best friends relationship? I thought..."Caleb asked, sounding rather surprised.

"Dont even go there. We grew up together. She's practically my sister. Plus, she likes someone else." Wesley said.

"Or maybe, you do like her but you cant admit it?" Caleb said.

"No way." Wesley said.

"Or maybe? I dont know. I mean, she's nice and all, but she's like a sister to me. Plus, I dont wanna ruin what we have. Why risk a friendship?" Wesley thought to himself.

"Alright, whatever. Can I have some of those?" Caleb asked, looking at the half eaten omelet Wesley made.

Caleb just took the fork from Wesley's hand and grabbed a bite before walking out the door for his morning classes.

"HEY!" Wesley shouted at him as Caleb ran off.

Wesley just shook his head and grinned.

"Maybe Caleb was right." Wesley sighed.

what i'm surprised to find out...

i've always thought that this blog is as dead as the oldest grave you could've imagine...

i've always thought that no one will ever come here...

out of sheer curiosity, i checked my stats to find surprising numbers my page view numbers...

people actually visit my blog???

seriously?

i'm happy in a good way...

so, whoever visited my blog before, do drop me a note in the shoutbox...

i'd really like to hear from you...

unless, those page views are actually myself signing in...

Wong Fu Ecomagination Video Challenge

some videos produced by Wong Fu for the Ecomagination Video Challege

the promo


What the Flush?!


Water Ain't No Thang!


Lights Out!

Just a Nice Guy

lately, i've been watching a lot of Wong Fu stuff...

and i wanted to watch this for a long time already but never could have find the time till now

i could totally relate to this short and its really meaningful

i wish girls could be more sensitive to us NGs...

i think i could classify myself as an NG (right?)

so, now, i'll share this with you guys...

to all the NGs in the world, our time will come

sigh sigh double sigh

i went to the bank to deposit money a while ago...

and the money i owe myself made me think...

its so hard for me to repay the amount of money i took out from my account when i needed the money then...

it made me think that if i'm to deposit XX amount back, it'll take me weeks or months from my allowance for now...

this led me to think of the pay when i come out to work next time,

not to mention , when i work, thats the end of my allowance and also "free" petrol, i'll have to start paying my own petrol which meant 100 to 200 bucks of my monthly pay will go to petrol alone...

then, how about lunch... another let say 300 gone there a month...

SIGH SIGH DOUBLE SIGH, SIGH, MAKE IT TRIPLE...

and when my dad told us about our expenses, it makes me wonder if i can even make enough for the future...

i'm not too sure if i'll even be able to get married by the age of say 35...

if not, its either i dont have enough income or i'll be too busy working to even look for my soul mate...

SIGH!!!!

now i understand when people say school days are the best...

wait till i really experience it...

i'll never understand

i'll never understand you smart people...

you're always with your books and just had to read and read and read...

it stresses you out and in turn, stresses us out too...

and you guys are so engrossed in your work that sometimes you could be really inconsiderate just cos you wanna finish up things fast to return to your books...

gosh! whats the big idea....

maybe cos i'm not you thats why i cant understand...

i cant concentrate on doing homework all the time for too long...

i cant do the extra for academics...

i'm just not cut out to study for long periods unless its in audio visual form...

i think i might have mild ADHD...

i have a short attention span...

so, i wont understand...

your mould is not my mould...

new eating menu...

in an effort to lower my blood pressure, i've decided on the menu for this week...

but since i dont take breakfast, i'll just list down lunch and dinner...

Monday

lunch - cornflakes

dinner - cornflakes

Tuesday

lunch - plain soba noodles

dinner - oatmeal

Wednesday

lunch - plain soba noodle

dinner - oatmeal/cornflakes

Thursday

lunch - plain soba noodle

dinner - oatmeal

Friday - CHECKUP!!!! hope this helps me...

i'm sorry

i'm sorry i've been acting weird lately

(some friends: really?! no la! you were fine)

but i was acting weirdly... you guys just didnt take the time to notice (cos you're too busy with your own lives that was shooting up while mine was going through a downward spiral)

(sorry, that only implied to some "friends")

so, yea...

i've been acting weirdly and i apologize for it...

i've been rather down lately...

been putting a lot of pressure on myself till i've come to terms with the fact that i'm actually stupid...

i cant do simple math equations that i could do in seconds last time... i just forgot how to do them already...

this took a toll on me as i've checked my blood pressure these days and found that its pretty high...

i feel so stupid now....

contemplated dying but what difference does it make....

if it does not make any difference whether i'm dead or alive, might as well live...

at least i'll still have a shot of going to heaven when i die (naturally)

exams are drawing near...

i STILL dont know what to do...

i STILL cant find my purpose in life...

i STILL dont know what's in store next...

i NEED GOD to tell me...

i NEED GOD to reaffirm me...

i NEED peace....

Found in You - Jesus Lifehouse Tokyo

i had/been listening to this song for quite some time but now only i realized i wanted to share this to all of you...

so here it is, Found in You by Jesus Lifehouse Tokyo

The Lyrics

Found in You

救いの神様が

(sukui no kamisama ga)
変えてくれたよ　この人生を
(kae te kure ta yo kono jinsei o)

救いの十字架が
(sukui no juujika ga)
永遠の命　与えてくれる
(e i en no inochi atae te kureru)


捧げよう　すべて
(sasageyo subete)
あなたを愛してるから
(anata o aishiteru kara)
イエスだけが　満たす魂
(iesu dake ga mitasu tamashii)
歌おう　あなた讃えて　イエス
(utao anata tatae te iesu)

Salvation belongs to our God
Nothing else could ever change
My life the way You did
Salvation belongs to the cross
By the perfect blood You shed
I live eternally

My life is forfeit to You
'Cause I have fallen in love with the Saviour
Jesus alone can satisfy my soul
I'll sing Your praises forever Jesus

すべては　あなたの　中にある

(subete wa anata no naka ni aru)

All that I want,

All that I need

I found in You

(End)

All that I want

All that I need

I found in Your love

Below is a BM translated version that i did

Kes'lamatan hanya pada Tuhan

Tiada yang boleh ubah

Hidupku s'pertiMu

Kes'lamatan hanya pada kayu salib

Dengan darah sempurna

Kuhidup s'lamanya

Hidupku hanya untukMu

Karna ku cinta pada Penyelamat

Yesus saja sempurnakan hidupku

Kunyanyi pujian s'lamanya

Yesus

Semua ku mau, semua ku perlu ada pada Mu

Semua ku mau, semua ku perlu ada pada kasihMu.

if anyone wants the cords, pleases do tell me and i'll send them to you.

(^^)