Monday, August 23, 2010

new eating menu...

in an effort to lower my blood pressure, i've decided on the menu for this week...
but since i dont take breakfast, i'll just list down lunch and dinner...

Monday
lunch - cornflakes
dinner - cornflakes

Tuesday
lunch - plain soba noodles
dinner - oatmeal

Wednesday
lunch - plain soba noodle
dinner - oatmeal/cornflakes

Thursday
lunch - plain soba noodle
dinner - oatmeal

Friday - CHECKUP!!!! hope this helps me...

Sunday, August 22, 2010

i'm sorry

i'm sorry i've been acting weird lately
(some friends: really?! no la! you were fine)
but i was acting weirdly... you guys just didnt take the time to notice (cos you're too busy with your own lives that was shooting up while mine was going through a downward spiral)
(sorry, that only implied to some "friends")
so, yea...
i've been acting weirdly and i apologize for it...
i've been rather down lately...
been putting a lot of pressure on myself till i've come to terms with the fact that i'm actually stupid...
i cant do simple math equations that i could do in seconds last time... i just forgot how to do them already...
this took a toll on me as i've checked my blood pressure these days and found that its pretty high...
i feel so stupid now....
contemplated dying but what difference does it make....
if it does not make any difference whether i'm dead or alive, might as well live...
at least i'll still have a shot of going to heaven when i die (naturally)
exams are drawing near...
i STILL dont know what to do...
i STILL cant find my purpose in life...
i STILL dont know what's in store next...
i NEED GOD to tell me...
i NEED GOD to reaffirm me...
i NEED peace....

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Found in You - Jesus Lifehouse Tokyo

i had/been listening to this song for quite some time but now only i realized i wanted to share this to all of you...
so here it is, Found in You by Jesus Lifehouse Tokyo



The Lyrics

Found in You

救いの神様が

(sukui no kamisama ga)
変えてくれたよ この人生を
(kae te kure ta yo kono jinsei o)

救いの十字架が
(sukui no juujika ga)
永遠の命 与えてくれる
(e i en no inochi atae te kureru)


捧げよう すべて
(sasageyo subete)
あなたを愛してるから
(anata o aishiteru kara)
イエスだけが 満たす魂
(iesu dake ga mitasu tamashii)
歌おう あなた讃えて イエス
(utao anata tatae te iesu)

Salvation belongs to our God
Nothing else could ever change
My life the way You did
Salvation belongs to the cross
By the perfect blood You shed
I live eternally

My life is forfeit to You
'Cause I have fallen in love with the Saviour
Jesus alone can satisfy my soul
I'll sing Your praises forever Jesus

すべては あなたの 中にある

(subete wa anata no naka ni aru)

All that I want,

All that I need

I found in You

(End)

All that I want

All that I need

I found in Your love

Below is a BM translated version that i did

Kes'lamatan hanya pada Tuhan
Tiada yang boleh ubah
Hidupku s'pertiMu
Kes'lamatan hanya pada kayu salib
Dengan darah sempurna
Kuhidup s'lamanya

Hidupku hanya untukMu
Karna ku cinta pada Penyelamat
Yesus saja sempurnakan hidupku
Kunyanyi pujian s'lamanya
Yesus

Semua ku mau, semua ku perlu ada pada Mu
Semua ku mau, semua ku perlu ada pada kasihMu.

if anyone wants the cords, pleases do tell me and i'll send them to you.
(^^)

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Back with a Tag - You're my Angel

RULES!!!!!!

1. Put your Music Player on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW OUTRAGEOUS IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
You're not sorry.

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
4 Minutes

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Shining

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
I Say a Little Prayer

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Change

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Don't Make Me Over

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Imagine

WHAT IS 2+2?
Bust a Move

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Let's go Crazy (I like this one)

WHAT SONG WILL YOU PLAY WHEN YOU SLEEP?
Now or Never

WHAT WILL HAPPEN WHEN IT RAINS?
Ready N Go

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU DON'T SLEEP?
Wanna be like You

WHAT IS YOUR AMBITION?
Smile

WHAT WILL YOU SAY TO YOUR NEWLYWED?
Hate on Me (HAHAHAH!!!!)

WHEN YOU FART YOU SAY...
119

WHEN SOMEONE KICKS YOU; YOU SAY...
Hot Stuff

WHAT IS THE NUMBER AFTER 50?
Forever & Always

WHEN YOU WERE BORN, WHAT HAPPENED?
Love Revolution

WHAT WILL YOU SING ON YOUR NEXT BIRTHDAY?
Dancing with Myself (So sad)

WHAT WILL BE YOUR WEDDING MARCH SONG?
a.ri.ga.tou.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS CALL YOU?
You're having my Baby (duh, I AM your baby)

YOU HATE IT WHEN...
Jin Gu Curse

YOU LOVE IT WHEN...
Please Don't Go

YOUR NEXT BF/GF WILL SING THIS SONG TO YOU AS A CONFESSION:
Express Yourself (I'll express my reaction then)

YOUR BEST FRIEND CONFESSES THAT HE/SHE LIKE YOU A LOT; YOU SAY...
Fire

WHAT DO YOU SAY WHEN YOUR PET LICKS YOU?
You can't always get what you want (lick me all you want puppy, no extra food for you though)

WHEN YOU SEE THE JONAS BROTHERS, YOU WILL SAY...
Step on the Beat (cos i know you 3 can't... hahaha... with your skinny jeans, hmph)

WHEN YOUR FRIENDS SAY HI YOU [SAY]...
Crush

YOUR FRIENDS SAY YOU'RE WEIRD; YOU [SAY]...
Taking Chances (and see what being weird can bring me)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Defying Gravity (too awesome that she defies gravity)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Jie Guo Lie

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Keep holding on (to what?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Tattoo (wish she will be the tattoo to my heart)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
White Horse (hmmmm... neigh?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Y,Why... (why am I dancing?)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Like a Virgin (i'll die before marriage?)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
We wanna Party!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
One Time

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Smile (HAHAHAHAHA!!!!)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Teardrops in the Rain (i'll die of crying in the rain?)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Rock It

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
One of a Kind

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
The Best Day (tears of joy)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Eclipse (huh? maybe it depends on the eclipse...)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Faithfully (scared of faithfully pursuing murderers)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Borderline (huh?)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Turn up the Music

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
To Sir with Love (that'll be gay)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
You're my Angel

Monday, August 9, 2010

Always the good friend material, never the boyfriend.

Its weird, isn't it?
that being the nice guy, i've always been the good friend material but never the boyfriend material.
girls always find me the sensitive guy who looks after them like a good friend should.
they always ask me if i already have a girlfriend and when i say no, they wont believe me, saying someone as "good" as me, its impossible that i dont have a girlfriend.
and they'll say stuff like, whoever that can be my girlfriend is lucky...
flattering, but really?! do they need to do that? its not like it will boost my charisma or anything to get a girl... so......
why do they do that when they themselves should know why i dont have one...
heck, they are girls, they should understand the female mind more than i do...
i guess girls of this generation prefers dangerous badboys, the "Cool" punks or someone who can give them a secured future, thats why i guess the bad boys and the geniuses are the ones with the girls...
what can i provide for a girl is only emotional security. so, i guess thats why i cant get a girl... girls dont want that, thats what their other girl friends are for i guess...
they dont need guys to understand them (but they always complain when guys cant understand them)
they dont need guys to care for them (so-called independent women)

so... whatever for now i guess....
or, its cos God knows i'm too fragile to survive a breakup, so He will get me one when the time is right...hmmm....
(but you know, sometimes, i wanna make my own mistakes... weird, but true..)

Saturday, August 7, 2010

lately

So, the blog has been dead for what...2 months plus...
lotsa stuff had been happening lately...
the fact that i got to know i'm actually pretty dumb got me bummed...
i need to find stuff that i'm good at... something i feel special when i'm doing it...
and i guess maths and chemistry are not...
that day, i really felt like screaming my heart out and cry in school when i really forgot how to answer simple maths questions that i could do in the past...
and i still feel the sting till today...
gosh.... i'm sooooo stupid...
CHOU BAKA DESU!!!!

i've realised that the answer to my questions these times were all "I dont know".
they are the answers to what i want to do, what i'm good at, what should i do so on and so forth...
so, i need a new talent...
one that i can do awesomely but i guess power point is not it too....
its not something special...
all these times, i've been a jack of all trades but master of none...
what to do....
SIGH!!!

now, on the the brighter side...
Power Rangers will continue next year...
YAY!!!!
with the adaptation of one of the most awesome Sentai series that i've watched Samurai Sentai Shinkenger...
wonder how Saban would pull this one this time...
and as i was reading through the blogs, i've found out that they've confirmed the cast for the rangers... all six of them...

a good looking set of cast indeed for next year...

my first opinions of the cast based on their looks, cross-referencing with their Shinken counterpart.

Alex Heartman/Reese doesnt look very much like a lord as Tori was. He looks more like a rebel kinda person. But who knows, maybe Saban would pull some strings and deliver him well... He would look nice if he have some sort of friendly rivalry with Dillon (as they both have that brooding bad boy look ) if they will have a teamup with RPM which imo is highly unlikely.

Najee vs Aiba...... theres nothing much too say... I cant see Najee/Baron pulling a Ryunosuke. He doesnt look very versatile to do the over emotional part. His face just wont do it.

Hector vs Shogo... I think he's look can pull of as being a bit like Chiaki. He has the kinda look that suits the young rebel, i'm-so-different- than-everyone-else look. so, i can picture him doing a Chiaki.

Brittany vs Suzuka-chan... hmmm.... she cannot pull the innocent look but the country girl look, i think she can look the part and i think that her wardrobe will play a very big role in making her look a bit country.

Erika vs Rin... very different looks. Erika is more of the cute look but Rin has the more mature look. I can see Erika being a bit of a valley girl, ala Brenda Song/Wendy Wu kinda look but not too much... but that doesnt really suit the suited fight scenes as Mako's moves are a bit more graceful yet powerful. we'll see...

Last but not least, Steven vs Keisuke. definitely cant see any sign of Genta-ness in him... definitely cant be a sushi chef and dont see any humorous look out of Steven.

so, all i can say is, we'll just have to wait and see how things go with the new season of Power Rangers.

(disclaimer: i do not own the picture. it was taken from all over the internet... but i did the editing, so do credit if taken