Sunday, September 30, 2012

Alone.... doesn't sound bad actually...

so here's the deal...
being me, i crave for company...
so, i guess in order to get that, i'm nice to almost everyone i want to have company with...
unfortunately, not everyone wants my company...
but they won't tell me...
they'll just keep on using me till i'm sucked dry...
which leaves me unappreciated, used and abused... (or i feel that way)

so, i do think that being alone is not such a bad thing...
at least it's better than being used and abused...

sometimes, i feel like people whom i put in my inner circle are and were the wrong people...
i do feel like they don't even actually give two hoots about me...
i wonder why i try so hard to try to win their affection....

i guess, i'd rather be alone than used and abused after all...

on another note, not too far differing...
have you ever wonder if the person who builds their walls are actually longing for someone to actually, genuinely take their time to break through it...
let me let you see it this way...
building a wall is not to shut people out...
it's to open a window for the right people to come in and repel the wrong ones...

sometimes, i just wish i'm not that nice...

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Live

it's been way long peeps...
miss me? (who am i kidding? this place is as empty as my cookie jar....)

the other day, my friends and i were playing with henna tattoos...
and i though of writing the word Live on my wrist...
(but we didn't come to that cos the one we have has a blunt tip... too thick to write with)
but why Live?

I choose Live because it represents life...

To live in the moment
To cherish life
To live and not give up
To not just die
To simply... LIVE
For being aLIVE is a gift that we sometimes take for granted

and many times, i do feel like life is meaningless
cos sometimes, i feel like God is so far away
and this makes me feel dead albeit being alive...
so, to be alive, is also be close to God and that is why i think my new motto in life is
LIVE... (pronounced 'leave' not 'laiv')