Sunday, March 31, 2013

Blessed Easter and an Announcement

hey blog buds,
Blessed Easter to all who celebrate the Risen King!!!
WHOOO!!!!

now, the announcement...
tomorrow will mark the start of BEDA...
be what?
BEDA...
Blog Every Day in April...

now now, it's not my original idea...
i'm not that intelligent... (or am i?)
i borrowed the idea of BEDA from gunnarolla who started VEDA (Vlog Every Day in April) few years ago...
so, this will be a chance for me to sharpen my blogging skills...

oh, the other day, a friend of mine mentioned that i'm going too fast for him and he needs to catch up...
so, better shift to a higher gear cos BEDA is coming!!!

speaking on shifting gears, i wonder how many of you still knows how to drive a shift-stick...
cos i can...
BOOYAH!

see ya tomorrow...


Thursday, March 28, 2013

fanatics drive me nuts

Warning: 

today's post might be a bit controversial, but then again, i promised to blog whatever that is on my mind that's worth sharing

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yeah, you read that right...
fanatics drive me nuts...
especially when they try to shove their ideals down others' throats...

today, i'm going to focus more on homophobic fanatic...
just to clear the air on homosexuals,
i do not condone their acts but i do not condemn them either...
it's not for me to judge and i know that it's a big struggle for some of them...

the other day, there was a play (for free) in my university entitled 'Asmara Sonsang' which means
Twisted Romance...
from the beginning of the entry till i left, i don't think i really enjoyed it...
upon entry, they hand out some religious memos on... well, i didn't actually read it but it's along those lines...
then, the seating is separated to male and female...
that itself is already being ridiculous...
and here comes the summary...
"blablabla.... to the music of the Devil .... blablabla"
I was like, seriously?!
but we decided to just stay a while and see from there...
the acting was average...
and the portrayal of the LGBT community is so way off...
did they even do their research?
did they even get to know the why's before actually tackling the problem?

things i felt against their portrayal:

  1. LGBT community do not simply, blatantly shout out LGBT all the time...
  2. they are not so attached that they need a partner 24/7
  3. they don't party all night and day
  4. they have a community but i don't think they have an exclusive club that you need to register and stuff
  5. THEY ARE ALSO HUMAN!!!
in a way, i felt that if you want to "fix" them,
you should get to know them and do it with a friend (cos it's still not wise to do it alone)
get personal...
don't just get to them straight on in the crowd...
you'll only drive them further...

let's give a "normal" example for you to see...

Jimmy is a talented kid who dreams of becoming a teacher. But one day, as Jimmy was doing his exercises, he made a mistake and in comes Mrs.Maard. Mrs.Maard shouted at Jimmy while correcting him. Jimmy, feeling intimidated felt that he no longer wants to be associated with the teaching profession and decides to never go into teaching because teachers are bossy and rude, thanks to Mrs.Maard.

see...
if you bombard them like that,
you will only shun them away...
then, they would be intimidated and no longer want to be "fixed"

another part that i felt these bombardment is just plain inhumane would be in a situation like this:

Walt is a teenage boy who goes to church. But Walt has a secret that he could not tell the world. He finds guys more attractive then girls. Walt knows it's against the norm and is a sin. But he cannot get rid of these emotions. He felt that he need to seek help from his mentor. However, one day, in school, there's this fanatic religious person, Guy Marcho who screamed and shouted against homosexuality. Intimidated, Walt draws closer into the closet and denies himself for help because he's afraid that his mentor might be like that as well. 20 years has passed and only Walt and God knows his secret. Walt pleaded with God everyday to remove his desires but because he's not held accountable, he could not fully recover, thanks to Guy Marcho.

i know that these people may have the right intentions...
but their execution is just wrong...
not only they're not helping, they are worsening the condition...

so people, 
i still feel that we should help and not condemn...
who are we to judge 
and maybe like Walt's case, he's (or she's) struggling too...
affections are emotions and emotions are something we can't control, only hide...
it's not easy for them

thank you for staying and reading this long rant...
and if you are struggling like Walt, here's a website that could lead you to help...
it's a Christian organization that helps people who are sexually broken...
and i've heard them speak...
who is better to help than someone who has been through the same fate?
so, if you want help, visit
Pursuing Liberty Under Christ @ pluc.org.my




Monday, March 25, 2013

we're no amphibian

hey blog buds,

the other day, my friend and i were "discussing" about it being impossible to have the best of both worlds...
now, i can't remember the details of my undocumented thoughts but here's to whatever i have in my mind now...

you see, we can't always have EVERYTHING...
cos for every something, we have to lose something else...
kinda like buying stuff...
to obtain the item, we need to part from our money...

and some may think that it's just not fair that some people have almost everything...
money, fame, power, and even looks...
NO FAIR MAN!!!
yup, it's not fair...
but you know what we have that they most probably may not have?
security...
we can sleep at night not needing to worry (too much) about being robbed...
we would be less likely to be kidnapped and asked for ransom...
and when we fail at something, the whole world would not know...
(unless you announced it on you social media)

so people, we ain't amphibians...
we can't the best of both worlds...
we'll just have to live with that...

and urm, Hannah Montana?
not real.....



Friday, March 22, 2013

travelling alone

as much as i enjoy company,
i now enjoy travelling alone too...
travelling alone gives me time to think...
and i do not need to bother about people asking me stuff and having to answer them...
especially when i'm not really in the mood for discussion...

but you know what,
when i travel alone (whether driving or taking public transport)
i tend to go into deep thought mode...
which is pretty good sometimes...
but sometimes, it could get depressing....

so, today, the thought that came to my mind was this...
"God, I do admit that I really want a girlfriend to share my life to, but I will wait for You."
so, to be honest,
i do want to share my life with someone...
someone i could talk to...
(and also cuddle and all)
but, i've decided (or at least trying my best) to wait for God to bring me the right one...
cos if i continue searching, i'll end up broken again...

so, sometimes, it's pretty good to travel alone...
you'll have time for yourself to think life through again...
and have some alone time to talk to God...

Take time off your busy schedule and try walking alone once in a while...
you'll never know,
you might hear God speak...


Thursday, March 21, 2013

Press 'escape'

'escape'
we all want it...
we all do it...

in a way, i guess most if not all of us would like to escape reality...
the rich wants to know how it's like to suffer (kinda)
and the poor wants to know how it feels like to be rich...

in a way, all of us would want to be someone different...
in a way, all of us want to escape...

for me, sometimes, i take an escape literally...
and since i have a car, that is my way of escaping...
i would drive somewhere alone...
talking to myself,
talking to God...
this is my form of escape...

for some of us, escape only comes in our heads...
that is why we fantasize about things...
about how life could be...

for others, we would like to escape our past...
sometimes, even the tiny mistakes...
we just wished we could have done it differently...
but the regret never seem to leave...

escapism...
it's in all of us...

but the thing is,
as much as we want to escape,
reality strikes and all we could do is SURRENDER...


what if i was blind...

hey blog buddies,

today's blog is not really thought provoking but just a little sharing of experience...
what if the signs were there all along when we were still together but i just refused to see it...
i wanted some one who could actually love my parents as well, ya'know...

signs i shouldn't have ignored:

  1. she wasn't comfortable when i said i wanted to see her parents (you know, to ask official permission and blessing)
  2. she got kinda mad when i can't spend Valentine's with her but spent it with my mum instead... (come on man, i'll be happy if my partner loves her parent cos it will come back to our kids)
  3. she was reluctant when my parents were around and wanted to meet...
  4. she doesn't really like you respect her... (i didn't want to start touching, or even hold hands, before i get her parents' blessing)
so, here were the signs i shouldn't have ignored...
and here's a little to you guys...
if your partner can't love your parents, and doesn't let you love theirs, 
you know it's a recipe for a bad relationship...
learn from my mistakes and do not (at least try not) make the same mistakes...

-J



Tuesday, March 19, 2013

cos connection is oh so necessary

hey blog buds,

in this time and age, with everything so fast paced,
connection is really important...
whether it's through internet or telephone connection,
they are both really important...

those days, without the invention of telephone and such,
a college student will not know if their class was cancelled until they get there...
sometimes, the lecturer would not be able to contact the leader to tell the class...
so, if stuff were last minute, that would make a big waste of time...

speaking on time,
without connections, things will be kinda slow...
snail mail, true to it's name, will take ages to reach the desired recipient...

now, the other side of it,
those days, the world was still safe...
now, you can't even guarantee that you'll reach home safely when you just want to head to
the sundry shop down the road and pick up a little supplies...
this of course, rings more true for ladies and younger people...

however, with connection, this case kinda worsens...
people could now track your position and stalk you...
with some apps that shows where you are, people could track you...

so, blog buddies,
surf safe...
check your privacy settings and make sure you're always alert to your surroundings...

Technology,
even the good will have some bad...

J


Monday, March 18, 2013

little color in your life

they say that the little things in life that adds color to it...
i would also like to add that the little bad things are included...

you see, without the bad, the good will seem, normal...
and boring...
to me, a perfect life is a boring life...
and that is why perfection is just boring...

with the little bad things, we get embarrassing stories...
and embarrassing stories will make us laugh when we're older...
the bad things in life also makes the good seem better...

so, what are you waiting for...
enjoy both the good and bad in life...
cos roller-coasters are more fun than train (Sheldon will defy though)


Friday, March 15, 2013

dear friend,

dear friend,
i'm writing to you because they told me you'll listen...

those were the words that actually pulled me into liking The Perks of Being a Wallflower...
deep within us, we just want to be heard...
but many a times, it's either what we say was drowned out by the crowd,
or people only listen when you have something stupid to say...

is society so "whats the word" these days that no one wants to listen to thoughts of others...
like real thoughts
because these thoughts are the ones that could cause change...
it doesn't matter whether it's a small or a big change,
it will somehow cause change...
because thoughts that does not cause change is void and empty...
and people do not like change....

but once in a while, comes a thought,
a thought so loud that it changes the world...
thought of freedom,
thought of justice,
manifested in words spoken...
words spoken to loud,
words spoken that demands attention that it changes the world...
and thanks to these thoughts of these great men,
we are now where we are...

thoughts,
the reason we speak,
the reason we listen,
the reason I blog...

think about it...
if my thoughts could change the world,
what will they be?



Monday, March 4, 2013

Banana and eye contact

They say you should never engage in eye contact when eating a banana
So, I kept a blank face as I munch away
Within a few bites, I was done
And that was lunch.