Monday, March 30, 2009

i think i have a syndrome...

don't worry
it's not infectious and there's nothing wrong with my brain ( i think)

earlier today, i was reading through Alyssa's blog and saw that she wrote something on middle-child's syndrome.
so, it intrigued me (as i am a middle child) and found that the research results she found indeed implied to me...
kinda all of it...
so yea, i have a syndrome that i wasn't aware of till now,
the middle child syndrome.

Quote from the net:

The middle or second born child or children often have the sense of not belonging. They fight to receive attention from parents and others because they feel many times they are being ignored or dubbed off as being the same as another sibling. Being in the middle a child can feel insecure. The middle child often lacks drive and looks for direction from the first born child. Sometimes a middle child feels out of place because they are not over achievers and like to go with the flow of things.

Being a middle child would mean they are loners. They really don’t like to latch on to a person in a relationship, therefore they have trouble keeping one due to lack of interest. Not liking to take the limelight for anything, they are not over achievers and just simply work enough work to get by, and typically that goes with school as well as a career. They are however very artistic and creative. If forced to use abilities they will work well, but do not work well under pressure. They often start several projects but rarely keep focused long enough to finish a project.

The best career move for a middle child would be along the lines of using their creative. Going into a writing or journalism career, and into a career that they could freely express themselves would be good. Anything that would have hours that are flexible, and projects that frequently changed would be good for a middle born child. Since relationships are not of high importance to a middle child, often times they are alone. However, the best possible match for a middle child would be a last born.


Sunday, March 29, 2009

he's sorry that he's such a failure

he'm sorry for being such a failure.
he suck at everything i try to achieve...
he tried to bring at least a wee bit of happiness to my parents yet i always fail...
he try to do what i could at home with the chores yet IT NEVER SEEMS TO BE GOOD ENOUGH...
and he have to listen to all the complains and heart-aching comments on the messiness of the house when here he was, helping to sort things out in the fridge while someone was there just sleeping and doesnt seem to bother...
whenever he slack or tries to enjoy life a little bit more than usual, he gets the blow of words and complaints.

every time she comes home, she does so little...
every time,the other he is either out playing or just hanging in his room without laying a finger...
he had to be the one helping out yet as he was helping, complaints start pouring on how messy things are...
he's really saddened by the fact that the one that did the most among the 3 had to listen and be condemned while he's still trying to help out despite all that...
in his deep hurt he carried on till he could find the time to go into his room and wet his pillow with tears when no one is around...
and all he could think of is how much of a failure, a disappointment he is and that no one cares cos he's just another speck in this world, so insignificant...
so he decides that he'll try his best to stay far away in his future...
and when he returns, he'll just come back to slave and go again, bearing all the hurt all over again...
he has no shoulder to lean on, no where he could show his tears and someone would just go with his flow without any "but you're also in the wrong."
deeply, as he tried to come out of his shell, he's pushed back in by a strong force called hurt.
he begins to hate himself just as he began to love himself.
he doesn't have the strength and courage to go through suicide and thus had to be strong enough to endure all hurt thrown at him...

he's now really sad and will sleep away his sadness and here i am, his alter ego trying to write down his emotions...

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

gosh! i'm stupid

gosh!
i'm having the feeling again...
i kinda hate it...
though most of the times, i hide it...
its that really stupid feeling
the one that made me feel like i'm getting stupider...
its mainly cos i failed to get 10A's for my SPM which is really depressing...
and a B for Chemistry...
thats the worst thing that ever happened...

hearing from Mr.Zeelan that many of his students called him and said they had a A1 really bugs me that i failed to do so...

I'M SO STUPID!!!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Yesterday and Today!!!

yesterday was lotsa fun cos da boss belanja us to a Staff Dinner.
WOOT!!!

so after work, i followed in Yoga's car to DU first to meet other staffs.
I was there with Sandy and Yuki.
Sandy didn't feel like being there so finally, we went down to a Starbucks downstairs.
So we ordered our starbucks...
hehe...
i finally found my favorite Frappucino...
JAVA CHIPS!!!
WOOT!!!
SUPER DANG DELICIOUS!!!


then, after some time, we headed to the place in Soho KL.
the place is not really a mall...
it's kinda like an outdoor mall...


the Perfection Staff Dinner was held in Tenji Japanese Buffet Restaurant


there, we had lotsa sushi and SASHIMI!!!
which are raw salmon and octopus...
AWESOME!!!
i even had oyster...hehe
rich people food...
hehe...
there, they also had Haagen Dazs...
wow!!!
the Sorbet was awesome...
so sour, just like the way i like it...
hehe...
the Shitake Mushroom was also so good...
like sprinkled caramel on top...
hehe...
and also coconut drink...
awesome...
i had 3 coconuts..
hehe...
i think this is the website...
they got promotion until 31st March
so ne quick cos its a great promotion...
Tenji Soho KL Solaris

here we are from the Rawang Branch


and the four frens


~~~~~~~~~~

then today is the day...
the D-DAY!!!
SPM Result Day
i think mine is ok...
but something pretty bad happened...
i got 7A, 3B, and 1 E...
1 freaking E for Bible Knowledge.
i did read my bible but the problem is
i had no guidance from any tutor
my answers might be right but my format might be wrong and caused me to lose so much


and then i rushed to Selayang Mall to meet up with my old friends...
hehe
the ones i can go crazy with...
here's to our happy family except for the girl in yellow wearing white tudung.


i took this photo so i'm not in it.

but i'm in this one but its not too nice.

Monday, March 9, 2009

WHAT THA....

i'm very emo now...
listening to McFly - Too Close for Comfort is going along my feelings but the incident is not mine...
it happened to one of my very best friend...
you see, she and her ex-bf broke up last year...
he had no feelings anymore but she still harps a bit...
he sms/called her today...
at first, she's happy and overjoyed
but that tone turned upside down when he said he found someone new...
i was like WT-!
i sms-ed her as soon as i heard that from another friend
she replied...
but then i figured it'll be better to just call...
she said she is ok
but she sounded really really sad, devastated...
but she wished him and his new gf happiness...
wow...
such selflessness can only come from someone who truly loved the person before...

what's worse is that i continued to chat with the other friend
the friend told me that the ex never did really love her...
how could guys these days be like this...
sometimes, i'm even ashamed that guys can be so heartless
if you dont like someone, please do tell earlier than just playing with their feelings...
that Jerk is so getting a cold treatment when he sees me...

Saturday, March 7, 2009

God is AWESOME!!!

please be informed that this post is not to impose any religion to anyone...
if you're sensitive on religious issues, especially Christianity, please do not continue but if you do, you're really well appreciated...
this post also does not contain any material that condemns other religion, so be relieved.

today in Youth Cell, we watched an E-Speaker (ask Unc Poh Leong) calls it...
the E-Speaker was Louie Giglio and the title is "How Great is Our God"
i can't really tell the whole sermon again but there were some things that just BLEW MY MIND AWAY!

the first half was okay...
it kinda was about astronomy, how BIG are some things that God created and guess what...
He doesn't even need to move a finger...
He just need to speak and the thing happen...
WOW!!!
one thing that realy blew my mind was that in a galaxy called the Whirpool Galaxy,
the very nucleus of it is just too beautiful and the meaning of it is just too wonderful...
here's the picture of it taken by the Hubble Satelite

a cross, right in the middle of it...
WOW!!!!

the second part is just very touching...
but the part that struck me the most...
is that there is a molecule in our bodies called the Laminin...
it's function is as an adhesive molecule that binds everything together
and guess what...
its the shape of a Cross...
yup, a cross


which indirectly means that God is the one that sustained us...
that holds us together when everything seems to fall apart...
how WOW is that?!

it's just too AWESOME!!!
GOD IS AWESOME!!!

Monday, March 2, 2009

Another Song Tag...

back by popular demand, the SONG TAG...
but this time, i did the tag...hehe
you know the rules, if not...
here they are:

1. Put your Media Player on shuffle...
2. For each question, hit the next button...
3. Answer the question with the title of your song no matter how weird it is...

What song will you play when you sleep?
Hey (Don't Bring me Down) - TVXQ

What will happen when it rains?
All These Live - Daughty (what happens to these lives???)

What happens when you did not sleep?
Your Grace is Enough - Chris Tomlin

Whats your ambition?
Jesus Take the Wheel - Carrie Underwood (Jesus Decides)

What do you say to your newlywed?
The River - Chris Tomlin

When you fart you say...
Drip Drop - Vanessa Hudgens (what? liquified fart?!)

When someone kicks you, you say?
In this Moment - David Archuleta (in this moment, i'll kick you back...haha)

What's the number after 50?
All Bow Down - Chris Tomlin (yup, all bow down cos the number after 50 is coming)

When you were born, what happened?
Think of Me - David Archuleta (someone thinks of me when i'm born... cool)

What would you sing on your next birthday?
I'm Sorry - John Hoon (i'm sorry there is no party...)

What will be your wedding march song?
Breakdown - Daughtry (i guess she'll breakdown on the aisle... why?!)

What do your parents call you?
Next Plane Home - Daniel Powter (taking off now... booo booo boo wheee)

You hate it when...
Resolution - Nick Lachey (i guess i don't like to make resolutions)

You love it when...
This is my Now - Jordin Sparks (yay! i love it when it's my now!)

Your next BF/GF will sing this song to you to as a confession.
Let's Dance - Vanessa Hudgens (okie i guess)

Your best friend confesses that he/she like you A LOT, you say...
Canvas - Ken Hirai (i'll take out a canvas and???)

What do you say when your pet licks you?
What I want - Daughtry (lolz)

When you see the Jonas Brothers, what will you say?
Just Words - Emma Lahana (i'll just say words...lolz)

When your friends say hi, you...
Running - David Archuleta (i'll run?)

Your friends say you're weird, you say...
Afraid - Vanessa Hudgens (i guess i'll be afraid if they say that, or they'll be scared for saying i'm weird...muahahaha)

Tags:
DaphneYap
Diane Lee
Kimberly Koh
Carissa Morias
Alyssa Koh
Christen Koh
Jeremy Duke
Aaron Tay
Margaret Lau
Zhafa
Yuki Poon
Matt2001
Grace Purait

Sunday, March 1, 2009

(天)(木)(火)(水)(土) - With these brush strokes, we report to the emperor!

With these brush stroke, we report to the Emperor!
(henshin!)

thats the henshin (morph) call for this year's sentai (Japanese Power Rangers)


yea yea...
guess i'm still into these kinda stuff...
hehe
old habits die hard...
buts it's kinda fun, this Sentai...
i dunno...
suddenly got attracted to it...

other than that, what other stuff i've been up to lately?
i just passed my first part of my driving test...
the Law and Ethics test...
i passed with a 48/50
URESHII!!!

passing mark is 42/50...
so now, i'm waiting for my LDL (Learner's Driving License)
after that, i can go for practices...
10 hours total...
and then, the test, if i do well during the practices...