Sunday, July 22, 2007

revenge or no revenge???

u noe de feeling wher u noe de rite thing 2 do but u wanna do u'r way...
there's this "sexually polluted brain" guy in my class...
so d*mn irritating...
kept steppin on my "tail"

4 instance,
drama practice 4 tis year's merdeka celebration in skool...
i took de role of an old kampung man who wanted Merdeka,
he, on de other hand, a British police...
there's a scene where de police comes in 2 arrest de kampung ppl...
he kept on knee-ing me while i was down....
i felt so terribly wanting 2 shout back at him...
"WATS U'R PROBLEM!!!"
i think he got sumthin against gud guys (hey! i'm a gud guy)...

i think de story began when i was at de canteen...
bought a piece of keropok lekor...
hot wat...
so i was juz "holdin" it in my mouth...
"U suckin c*ck oh u?"
(dang... he's so dirty minded... he's brain is so full of sex...)
well.... he said it to his fren in tamil...
so, i juz turn, stared at him n asked him wat he said, sternly...
he repeated it...
so, without sayin a word, i juz smiled (i've kinda learned 2 not be irritated by stupid remarks... i mean, the more irritated u r, de more they'll continue...rite?) n stepped on his shoes... hard!!!
he started shoutin n shoutin la...
"stupid la u!!!"
i juz gave a bow...
"I'll take it as a compliment..."(well... i didn't say anything actually)
(sarcasm is already my trait...)

so...
as i was sayin....
wat should i do???
de rite thing is juz 2 forgive n go on...

1 Peter 3:9
Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing.

so... de rite thing 2 do is 2 forgive n (bless?) de person...

but my flesh is struggling with my spirit...
i'm gonna flare at him... for sure...

therefore,
i've come 2 conclusion...
i'm gonna tell a mutual fren 2 warn him if he dares to get on my nerves again, i'll flare him... even in front of Pn.Maha, for all i care...
if he wanna talk 2 me, bring it on...
if he still gets on my nerves on practices, i'll flare...
"Don't tell me I din't warn you!!!" i'll juz say...
that'll shut him up...

i'm no longer tat easy to be stepped on anymore...
wat "killed" me has made me stronger
i've gone through my storms n i've grown tougher...
step on my head, see wat i'll do to u...
BRING IT ON!!!

Friday, July 20, 2007

today is 20-07-2007

guess wat...
i juz realized tat de date 2day is 20-07-2007...
still wondering y itz special???
ignores de dashes...

2day???
i was not really in class de whole day...
only for Bio class only...
hehe
got sum work tat hv 2 finish 2day...
da whole day, Faizz n I were typin de name list 4 de Pasir Salak trip...
after recess, Pn.Maha came...
said got sum problem...
so, Arrifah, Faizz n I went 2 betulkan de problem...
turns out, actually no problem with my typing...
printer got problem...
so...
we printed a few...
still problem...
de empty space still there...
(bilik bidang's computer memang I wanna campak la I tell u....)
so...
got 1 de empty space was filled oledi...
but another wan empty...
so, we did de old fashion way...
cut de empty one out n paste it in another paper...
so, de list finally lengkap... hahaha
then, we photocopied it...
wasn't really obvious tat we tampal... hahaha
if i hadn't tell, it's unnoticeable...
hahaha...

afternoon...
drama practice for Titik-titik Perjuangan
for Bulan Patriotik...
i actually had a role...
but i juz sit in as de driver 4 da orang inggeris...
hahaha...
i was so good at doin it tat Pn.Maha put me in 4 tat part...

for de less informed, Pn.Maha is my B.Melayu (or izit Bahasa Malaysia now?) now...
she's a good teacher in teaching komsas coz tats wat she took 4 her master's...
now, she's takin PHD...
wow yeah???

so... tats bout 2day... hehe...
so, 20-07-2007 is quite a special day
sort off to say...

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Fashion Design: I'm back!!!

guess wat!!!
i'm back to designing clothes again...
left it late last year coz i thought it's kinde queer...
but no...
i found out tat quite a number of famous designers are STRAIGHT GUYS....

of course, my designs are better and my drawing has improved...
i think i should not juz leave sumthin i like doin...
but... will it be funny???

i juz only designed two to three designs for the summer...
this summer theme, big, bold and fun...
also, retro is back...
and earth colour is in...

so...
go on...
give sum comment...

i guess its not you

things are supposed to get better each day...
i noe wat i wrote in my last post...
but i came to realization today...

who am I kidding...
basically no one but myself...
lying to myself each day saying "I'm having a crush on her"

we practically bumped into each other a lot today...
but not once did I utter a simple "Hi" or a "Hey"...

so I guess I'm gonna stop...
no point cheating myself anymore...
unless she makes a move by understanding de reason behind a gift I gave her...

then de next thing u noe, i'm sayin i'm in luv again
but i guess not tis time
juz lettin de feeling slowly die off

"Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You're the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to"

but it is not meant for me to choose...
one of my life goal is hard to catch now....
not enough time..
de goal is : getting a GF at de age of 16

so...
now i'm left alone...
decision is made...
Goodbye to you...

what should i say to her???

i like a girl... (cannot tell who)
but i dunno what to say to her...

"Let me understand clearly through the night,
Who am I without you?
Who needs this so-called freedom,
My whole world is already being possessed by you"

its a translation from a Chinese song entitled Zhan You(Possessed) by Fahrenheit

"So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you"

the chorus of a song from Elliott Yamin, Wait For You

or make up my own words...

"I have fallen deeply, madly in love with you,
My world is full of you,
When I wake up, I think of you,
When I sleep, I think of you.

I may not be the perfect man,
But what I have, I promise you,
To hold your hands through your storms,
To put my arms around you when the storm arrives,
To be your crying shoulder.

I'm just a phone call away,
Anytime, Anywhere,
You can count on me to pick up the phone
'Coz I'm deeply, madly in love with you."

suggestions anyone???



Friday, July 13, 2007

Week's episode

funny things in skool this week...

hmm...

Wednesday - Add Maths
(sir... if u readin... erm... laugh along la... haha)
we used another classroom...
particularly 5 Mendel...
Sir is usin almost de whole board oledi...
Sir is bending down to tulis de equation...
de equation quite long...
Sir writing like as though posing like tat...
Dean n I spoke to ourselves...
" Any lower and we would hear de crackin sound"
thank God...
never happened..
but practically de whole class is already laughing
then we (in we I meant Dean) like kacau Sir....
"Sir... hebat ha posing..."
"Then... wan me to bend down like tat ah ( cangkung action)..." replied sir
again... whole class laughs... hahahaha...

another thing....
also Add Maths class
Peng Peng's younger brother came into de class...
"........" (can't hear wat he said...)
"Wo...pu...hui... ciang... hua... yi..." Sir replied...
"nak jumpa Yap Lee Ping" said lil' boy...
jumpa n gone...
Gent kacau sir pulak tis time...
"Sir... sir cakap x tau Bahasa Cina dalam Bahasa Cina, kan?"
...... (don remember after tat...hehe)
tat was b4 de posing thing actually....

so...
wat i'm sayin is, my Add Maths classes are fun...
always look forward to it...
lovin da subject...
nice teacher is a very good extra...

Friday - Biology
nothin much...
juz living up de Helium trademark...
all suddenly like went on crack...
laughing at basically nothin
me included...
but i did not do anything embarrassing...
thank God...
teacher oso laughed (i think)...

Parveen asked bout de gamete of the anther to me...
de so-called female reproductive organ in a flower...
all sorts of answer popped in our heads
wat poly sumthin...
then... we finally surrender...
ask teacher...
Polen Grain...
we all laughed...
polen grain la...
wat poly-saccharides, poly watever... hahaha

(i think i'm still on crack when i'm writting this)

Bio class...
or rather ex-Helium students
we go on crack anytime...
mix with us...
even if u r de quiet type of person...
u Will LOL...


Wednesday and Thursday afternoons
Prefect Orientation (Tuesday, i was not in coz not free)
hmm....
nice, jovial, whacko group this year...
fun to be with them...

Wednesday... nothin much...
Thursday
Explorace day...
Dean n I takin de Dataran Budi area...
Task: two person with back facing each other (guy to guy, girl to girl), legs tied with rafia string, walk for about 2,3 meters, not walk, turn n turn....
got quite a lot of rafia strings...
Dean n I plan to kacau de Pengawas Percubaan-s
when they arrive, we just said in a melancholic tone
"Satu daripada anda perlu berkorban. Nampak tak paku itu? Dengan tali Rafia ini, gantung kawan anda"
many juz went...
"ok, ok... gantung aku"
both of us were shocked...
then de real task is revealed...

while they do their task, i got an injury..
while cuttin de rafia string with a blade, i accidentally cut my finger...
quite deep but wat i worry is tat de blade was a bit rusted
ouch...

i guess juz abaout tat...

sum words from a person havin a bad day

life as always,
has been takin its toll on me...

normal, unexciting days comes always
bad days, when it comes, it comes pouring like for days...
good days... as far as i remember, never came...
juz good minutes and good hours...

no wonder i brood most of de times...
i act crazy but deep inside, no one noes rite...
therefore, i made up a simple chorus

you see me as a guy who has it all,
a great girl and a great job, (not me but it fits to give de almost perfect thing)
but deep inside
the truth revealed
inside i'm hurting
a part of me is dying
i'm empty inside

so...
tats about it...

just started...

hey y'all...
it'z Jared Yap here...
i've juz started a blog here...
so my current Friendster blog will not really be in use anymore...
check me out...
post comments if u wan...
see ya when i see ya...
chioz