Friends who stay...

hey there blog buddies...
yesterday, a friend of mine tweeted something about losing friends bit by bit...
being witty behind the protection of my keyboard, i replied with
"and those who stay through thick and thin do not know us completely or accept us for who we are"

just think about it...
the friends or "friends" you (still) have now...
do they really know you...
cos personally, i feel like most if not all of them do not really know who i really am...
and i let them know who i want them to know...

however, i wonder if i'm the one that tries to believe a lie when they see the truth in me...
maybe i am a nice person after all...
it's just that i choose to think that i'm not good enough due to my personal struggles...
but how do we measure a person's niceness???
it's very subjective...
you'll never be able to really tell of one is genuine or not...
i guess these walls around me have to fall for me to truly see...

at times, i feel like people will run away if i show them who i really am...
but i will never know unless i try...
it'll come back to the sink or swim again...
and right now, i'm just wading...

now, let's say i'm to show the real me....
who's to say that people will accept me for who i am?
will they genuinely stay or are they staying just because it's polite?

but the bigger question is this,
WHO AM I?
which is real and which is fake...

they say that Geminis have multiple personalities...
i guess it's just a coincidence that i have multiple personalities too cos
they also say that Geminis have a lot of friends....
which for me, i highly doubt so...

so, think about it...
are your friends staying because they don't know your dark side?
or they accept every part of you, the good, the bad and the ugly...