Confused Friendship...

i'm a little confused of a friendship with a best friend i had...
Dean...

he was my best friend back where i used to stay.
the thing is, I'm confused of his friendship...

He messaged just to ask a question. I answered and i asked a question back "Is that the only reason you called?" he just answered a ya and said do I wanna ask his GF anything... I just answered no and he didn't reply back.

Then, i asked my other best friends, "Is he still in the our team?" Phoebe said No, Sam said No, Marcos said he's confused...

Then, i had a dream. In my dream, the team was there like we used to. I can see Sam, Marcos and Phoebe but not Dean... The question is, "Is it in my memory that he is always playing truant or he is no longer one of my best friend???" I'm confused.

The other day, Phoebe asked him did he call or chatted with me. He just gave a NO reply with a "does i really have to" look...

Few days before this, he finally called to ask about how my debate turn out...By that time, I had already thought the thought of "Maybe we don't need a Red Ranger after all..." You know what i mean...

SO, here I am, CONFUSED!!!
Should we just go on as a 4 ranger team? Or confront him???

lately...

things has been ok lately...

CNY...
I had to be in skool on CNY eve coz tis new skool does not hv many Chinese, so no long extra holidays for CNY...
CNY has been busy tis year...
thank go no holiday H/W... hehehe

Eve... nothing much happen, just reunion in uncle's hse...
Day 1... hmm... visiting visiting n visiting....
Day 2... same...
Day 3... my hse open hse... got to fetch old buds from SB... chat n update each other...
Day 4... after church... visiting again...
then, back to skool...

Skool...
everything has been ok...
got into a group i guess...
they had been nice... (Naz, the Twins n George)

Tuition (Perfection Rawang)...
everything is just so so la....

other stuff...
HAPPY TAT MARCOS N PHOEBE FINALLY GOT TOGETHER...
they are 2 of my best frens n finally they got together...
so happy 4 them...

nothin else i guess...hehe

Things are blurry nowadays...

like de title, things r blurry nowadays...
not really clear wat i wanna do n stuff like tat...
things r just plain messy...
argh!!!!

First Day in New Skool

long time no post...
guess its been a while...

for those who dunno, i moved sumtime ago in October...
i'm goin to a new skool now...

first day was really weird for me...
i feel totally left out n different.
everyone's talkin bout their holidays n stuff...
i was there reading a book, Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian to be exact...
a few students approach me, yet i felt different

usually, i don't bother much bout reading, but i read 5 chapters in skool alone.
back home, i have this weird kinda anxiety disorder...
like i'm missing something.
my frens noe i love to go online.
but i rather be back wid my frens than online at tat time.

new changes... really really weird...

Second Day was not so bad...
just tat i was told they have tis crappish rule tat says guys r not allowed to wear belt...
SUPER AWKWARD.

more acquaintances on second day...
but i still feel de anxiety disorder back home...

I nee You Jesus to come to my rescue

You are the source of the life
I can't be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of you

I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else can I go
There's no other name by
Which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow you

This world has nothing for me
I will follow You
This world has nothing for me
I will follow You